Hello myers: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Since this is your first post here on PC... welcome to Psych Central. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

Since you're still a teen & in school two forums, here on PC, that may be of interest to you would be the school & study issues forum & the teens' lounge (no adults allowed!) Here are links to these forums:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/scho...-study-issues/

https://forums.psychcentral.com/teens-lounge/

And then here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, that offers tips for teens on coping with emotions:

Techniques for Teens: How to Cope with Your Emotions

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.