or maybe...mellow out? I think I might fall into the "mellow out" category. my new psych professional reviewed my records. she literally said "some of these...don't make any sense...," which tells me we're on the same page. LOL.

but seriously...i may have been downgraded from schizoaffective to some kinda mood disorder that -had- a significant psychotic component...

but maybe has less of one now? or not really one, at all? I think after being psychotic, I saw everything as the monster coming back...

but really, this pro thinks I have severe anxiety and bad depression...bad depression as in it can turn into psychotic depression, but hasn't, in a while.

honestly, im thankful. and confused. my life has improved a good bit, too...maybe I just couldn't handle all the stress and my mind just broke, big time? i dunno.