I got a 116 but it showed I was really high in phobias.... I have PTSD which I also scored really high in obviously... I think phobia is high because I avoid a lot of social interaction & crowds for fear of a panic attack and I start to get really angry when people bump into me. I avoid areas of town that remind me of people or environments in relation to one of my traumatic events. I believe this part is just avoidance...

Anyways I have been really confused lately because a lot of what I have been reading (and because my old counselor mentioned it as a concern) leads me to believe I may have been diagnosed with depression when I should have been diagnosed with Bipolar disorder.

Another thing I am confused with is what it's called when you grow up with a mental defensive mechanism that you had your entire life. This mechanism basically allows you to be happy all of the time, and not ever let anything get to you, but then one day have a breakdown and be overly emotional unexpectedly. As an example, I had no emotions when our family dog died, everyone else in the family is crying or sad and I feel literally nothing. I have never known how to comfort anything with a sickness. And when I went to a wake for my uncle who I barely knew.... I was completely fine walking in and didn't have any emotion... then I see my uncles hair and instantly become hysterical.

My son's behavioral therapist said that this pattern (my son has it too I think) is a defensive mechanism so this concerns me. There was trauma throughout my childhood even when I was a baby so I know it's most definitely possible.

Does anyone have any experience with this kind of stuff? I would love to know! I don't get to talk about this stuff often..