Why should I bother trying?
The world can just suck it up without my input.
Let it take care of me.
I'm calling a time out until it decides what it will do with me.

Ok here is the sex and gender bit just to put the icing on the cake.
Being impotent after prostate cancer I have been sitting in my corner doing the exercises they said to do. (Who knew there were so many muscles just to pee.)
Anyhow the time has come to either get an implant or just let it go. There has been no luck trying to ask ppl to help me with stimulation and after I'm basing myself so many times in asking. All I can see is becoming one of those old men smelling of pee you don't want to look at in your lives.
I asked my wife for a cuddle today and all she said was did you just marry me for sex.
I'm not the sort of person who keeps on saying they will do something or hurt themselves over and over.
Sex therapy and the such won't help or therapy.
I am crying out for an answer.
Shall I continue being nothing or risk it all on an implant for a lonely life anyhow?