For the most part you handled things well today, but...
I've told you before that it bothers me when you focus on how saying cruel things to myself is "hurting myself" without even really acknowledging that I told you that I didn't do so physically. That that's really hard and it's progress and this time I didn't even spend that long being cruel towards myself and waited to talk it over with you first, and I would have liked some acknowledgment of that. I told you all of this and you still didn't seem to see it as an accomplishment. It was like you acknowledged it to humor me.
If the non physical stuff is just as bad then I might as well do both.
I'm trying to want positive attention instead of negative attention but you're making it hard.
...i wanted you to be proud of me and tell me it mattered and that you cared and you were glad I didn't hurt myself
It feels like you keep moving the goalposts and nothing is good enough.
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