I actually spent most of today sleeping on and off in bed. Creepy guy knocked on my door twice but I don't feel like I have the energy to do small talk so I didn't answer. But he called me so I answered.

You already don't feel real and I don't know why I'm reacting to your vacation news now when you don't go away for 11 weeks and then only for a month not 2 or 3,. Maybe I'll be doing my own thing by then, but I'm always stuck doing exams in the summer.

I want to cut down on sessions and not be so stupidly dependent on you. Maybe I just want to try someone new.