I keep gaining ****ing weight even with eating less. I am so discouraged. I’ve gained 13 pounds since March 1st when my back first gave out. I don’t know. I got a new scale so I know it’s accurate. But again, I did weigh myself in my clothes after eating and drinking all day so maybe it’s not as bad as I think. Still, when I started eating less I was 217 and now I’m 223. Clothes and food don’t add six pounds to the scale. We shall see. I’m going to weigh myself in my underwear before I eat or drink anything tomorrow and see what it says. Otherwise I’m just going to have to stay off the scale. It makes me want to give up.

Yesterday despite eating out twice I only went over by 185 calories. Today if I eat what I plan to I will be over by 46 calories. And the rest of the week I was under. So that’s good. Friday and Saturday are usually what get me.