Reducing this to the simplest issue: you need to go to the counselor. If debating over whether to tell your parents makes that harder or slows down the process when its almost the end of the year, dont tell them. Nike used to have a motto: JUST DO IT and I think thats the key here. One of the aspects of mental illness is rumination. To avoid that, when something really needs to be done , dont fall into that painful cycle of circular thinking. Just forge ahead. You’re as brave as you always tell us we are, my friend. Go for it and tell us how the counseling progresses on this thread. We’re all behind you!