You have two potential outcomes with your issue about forgiving yourself for this: One is you do, and the other is you don't.
In terms of what is best for you and your life, the hands-down answer would appear to be that the end result for you is that you find a path to self-forgiveness. You can either spend the rest of your life believing you are less-than/shameful/undeserving/creepy/non-acceptable, or you can find self-forgiveness and self-compassion and get on with the business of working towards living your best life.

What other people think here (or there) doesn't matter one tiny bit. With regards to your ability to forgive yourself, that is all between you and you. You are the one that has to live with you. You are the one that makes the choices that affect your life and how you feel about yourself.

I would urge you to not go back to that site. I would urge you not to seek others opinions about it anymore. Negative responses only lead you further away from self-forgiveness and self-compassion, and I urge you to make choices that lead you towards it, instead. How other people judge you - a complete stranger to them - can affect you terribly, but their opinions and feelings about it are utterly irrelevant. It is only you that you need to make peace with, and for the sake of your own self it is so important that you do.

You are human, You are fallible. You are forgivable! You are no better or worse than the rest of us.