Thanks everyone for your support. I wish I never asked that question on quora and I know I have to work on my own internal security and not seek out reassurances or judgements from others in order to know how to feel about myself. I suppose I just didn’t want to get lost in the human experience of it all. At the end of the day, “stalkers” are still humans to but that doesn’t discount or invalidate the fear that people have of them. I feel ashamed that the general public would put me in that category, as one of the posts talked about how greatly I disrespect and disregarded my T got over 1k upvotes. Logically, I know I have to stop this. I need to forgive myself, but part of my pattern is to assume/believe the worst possible things about myself (what some others may actually think about me), in order to not be caught by surprise. It may also be an excuse for me to wallow in my shame? I didn’t mean to hurt her, but I was being selfish. As I was driving by her house, it really didn’t occur to me how she might’ve felt about having her personal space invaded. I was on autopilot - acting on impulse because my attachment to her was as overwhelming as a moth to flame.