I am not sure I am going.. but also, I might gladly take it because what he basically accused me of is something that bothers me so much I need him to acknowledge it as not true.

He said that he could not be available to me all the time and that is what I was mad at. Which really just pisses me off because I am all about the boundaries. I try my hardest not cross lines. And to me it feels like I violated something if he thinks that is what I expect of him. I am well aware that he is my therapist and this it is a job and he has other clients that take his time, and a life of his own. I got angry with him this week, because what is the point of a safety plan if t does nothing. He tells me all the time that if I need him I could call/text him and he could see me. This week he knew how much pain I was in, knew I was on the cancellation list, but could not find anytime at all Monday - Friday. Also, I texted Friday morning to tell him I was feeling like my SI were getting harder to ignore and had all day that I could do something. That is my safety plan, that is what we both discussed I should do. And it took him 7 hours to respond back. Hell, he even told me during a recent trip that we would both be on for our daughters as my anxiety was bad, that if I was having a hard time I could contact him and he would take time to talk with me in person if need be. I was the one to say to him he is not my therapist outside of my office, and he said I know, but if I need him it was an option. I did not take him up on that by the way. Yet, somehow I am accused of expecting him to be available to him all the time.

I may be done with the whole therapy thing..