I just skimmed through the responses. The big thing I noticed is that I think only one of them was from a therapist--and she was compassionate and understanding about it. The rest were just random people. So they aren't giving you the sense of how a therapist would respond in the situation. Plus, you only gave a very brief description of what happened. I would try to avoid looking at the answers anymore.

I know it can be very difficult to deal with others' opinions on things you did. I've had a few threads here on PC in the past where some posters were particularly harsh with me. The main one that jumps to mind is from over 3 years ago, when I learned my ex-MC's wife was seriously ill and wanted to figure out how to talk to him about it. I recall someone saying "Leave the poor man alone!" And I felt like an awful, selfish person. I did end up talking to ex-MC about it, and he was accepting and understanding about my concerns/interest. I mentioned some people's reactions, and he said that they don't know him and to not assume he'd react the way they'd say.

I use that example to show that people were piling on me, and I felt guilty and awful, but then it turned out that my ex-MC was fine with it. I know in this case, your ex-T wasn't OK with it. But that doesn't mean that all T's would react the way she did, or even that many of them would.

I'm also very affected by others' opinions of me (always have been). My current T has been encouraging me, with some success, to use what he calls the "LT filter" (well, with my first name, not LT) when other people are giving me opinions. To not be so swayed by them, but to weight their value and consider how I feel about something. I'm not doing a very good job of explaining it, I don't think, but I've found that I've gotten better at doing that. To use PC as an example, I used to post things about my sessions not long after they happened, often before my own opinions had been formed about what happened (I can sometimes take a while to process things). And then I'd see posters saying negative things about something my T said or did, and it would color my opinion of him and the session. I've found now that waiting a couple days to post those details has helped me. By then, I've generally formed my own opinions and processed things, so if people say, "Wow, I can't believe your T said that, he sucks!" it's less likely to affect me, because I'll have already made up my mind about what he said. And some things I choose not to post about at all, because I know they could be misunderstood by someone who, say, wasn't sitting in the room with us or who doesn't know me or my T well.

I'm rambling now...basically, I'd try to focus on what *you* feel rather than on what random people on the Internet are saying--people who only have a bare minimum of the facts of what happened. You've shared more on PC, but we still don't know every detail of your relationship with your T (and I'm not saying we should), so we're going to provide a skewed opinion of what happened, based more on our own experiences and feelings. Try to just focus on how you feel about it (the JustBreathe filter) and...I forget, are you seeing a new T now? If so, talk to the new T about it.