We started with laughing at me replying 'I am fine'. I agree this is an understatement, but I wonder if you really know how much of an understatement this is.

Then we acknowledge how you talked at me last session. I didn't really understand the point of the psychoeducation you were giving me and I am glad I was unapologetic about stating how 'yes you did talk at me'. I saw you in a different light though. Which i think might be useful for our relationship. I hope next time I can call you to account there and then without waiting until next session, but sometimes you are like a dog with a bone and for some reason I just let you get away with it.

You tried some of this new IFS tactics. That didn't go down well and I am pretty sure I dissociated within about 5 minutes. I didn't like naming the feeling and tried to change the name, you didn't understand and pressed on. I think I need to be more explict. I think you need to be more open when I say its not called something and ask me why.

Somewhere along the line we stopped this. I am not sure at what point, but i do remember you saying maybe this won't work for you. I felt a little let down by that. I feel like you are saying I am too stupid for this. I did like your clarification that emoitions work slower then thinking though, because at least I have my smarts right? That and that is exactly how it feels. My emoitions are constantly trying to catch up.

We moved on to trust. Namely the lack of it. after almost 5 years you would have thought we had more, but the fact I am still coming should be enough. Thanks for sharing what you did. I could see you were really trying. I hope my responses demonstrated my appreciation and that I wasn't chucking it back in your face, I can do that sometimes. I know disclosure isn't your inherent tactic, but even the small amount you gave was enough and made me feel valued.

Next session I want to share a few things. I hope I find the courage to force that all out. I also want to thank you and show some form of appreciation. I hope I don't feel too timid for that.