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Originally Posted by Misfit Toy
I have always had anger issues. I have been told that depression is anger turned inward, so maybe it is just spilling over. Whenever I am really stressed, I get irritable and moody. I also get angry at hypocrites and narcissists. Anger is an emotion I avoided for years, yet I would explode after putting up with crap and trying to be "nice". I am still too nice. Would love to be a little more "mean", or at least tougher. I get run over a lot.
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My husband always had the "angry" depression. I have always had the "sad" depression where I will only hurt myself.
I think the difference is - my last counselor taught me to stand up for myself bc I was being abused. (Not in a physical way - but in an emotional way). As in - not caring about what others said - not even showing an outward sign of it, but instead speaking my mind, without using hate .. now though, I have lost control - so that hate is included n honestly sometimes I dont care that it is. I told my counselor back then it caused me anger and it scared me. She asked which was better - the anger or the fear. I said I didn't know - the anger I guess, bc at least it puts me in control .. shortly after she ended our sessions. So .. I never really learned much about the anger n I have always been a very laid back n gentle, empathetic, understanding person - that would let ppl get away with a lot bc I understood their issues bc I had been thru them. Now .. I get angry. It scares me bc its not who I am n never has been - she literally changed me.
Does that make sense?