I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, MatBell! I COMPLETELY understand what you mean! It IS definitely HARD to deal with people like that! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! Like they've ALL already wisely said, you WILL learn how to deal with this kind of people in the future! Unfortunately people like this are rather common and we're bound to deal with them one way or another! I'd suggest to just try to do YOUR BEST like you're already WONDERFULLY doing and to just take what you can! Try to hang on these four months AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! I understand why you'd feel discourage about ALL of this though and we'll ALL COMPLETELY understand whathever decision you make! Just try to do your best, ok? That's ALL we humans can do after all and it's ALWAYS more than enough! YOU CAN DO THIS! You've DEFINITELY got this! Just let us know how things are going, ok, MatBell? Let us know if there's ANYTHING, ANYTHING AT ALL that we can do to HELP YOU OUT! Just MENTION IT and LET US KNOW and we'll DO EVERYTHING WE CAN and TRY TO DO OUR BEST to HELP YOU OK! I PROMISE YOU THAT! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THAT! Just TRY TO HANG ON as much as you possibly CAN, ok, MatBell? We ALL care about you here! You ARE loved! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, MatBell! You don't deserve to suffer AT ALL! Nobody deserves to suffer AT ALL, certainly not such a caring, kind, generous, supportive, sweet, wise and wonderful person LIKE YOU ARE! Sending many hugs to you, MatBell!