I’ve been sleeping most of the day. Feeling kind of down. Finally up to go grocery shopping. Really don’t want to but I need ingredients for tonight’s dinner. If I were smart I’d plan dinner for the rest of the week too but that’s too much.

RS is going away on a week long vacation next week and I’m sad. I can’t believe I won’t see him for a whole week. I know it’ll be fine obviously we don’t have to be with each other 24/7 but I will miss him. Especially because I’ve gotten used to seeing him 4x a week. He wanted me to go but obviously I can’t take off work, I’m going back for the first time in two months on Wednesday.

I have two cigarettes left. I’m really going to try to make them my last two cigarettes. I’m tired of hiding from RS. It’s awful I don’t want to lie to him anymore. Lie by omission.

Oh well I hope I feel a bit better tomorrow.