I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy. It's hard, but like Jedi said, it will pass. It just doesn't feel that way right now. It's so hard to see past where you are right now, I know, I really do. But it will. Just gotta keep fighting. Sending good thoughts for strength. You can make it through. Do you currently have a pdoc? Good idea to check in and see if meds could be adjusted. It could help. Sometimes a lot.