One thing you need to understand....there isn't a drug in this world that "makes the anger go away". That is something that is inside of you.....your personal feelings about the situation you are in....& until the situation changes or you accept it....that is the only thing that will control your anger feelings.

That being said.....I read that if you gain weight....he will leave you. Gee, is that really so bad? If a person is only staying married to you because you only weigh a certain amount....you really aren't in a marriage anyway. I don't know how tall you are, but weight is definitely a problem.....I have anorexia problems which are caused by stress & being a low weight isn't healthy. Why do you want to be unhealthy for some insane person you are married to that lied how fool head off to you & is keeping your whole life in secret so that you can't even live a real life?

I know that you must have your reasons for staying in this relationship....& if he has position....that may be part of it....you are under the wing of his position & trying to look the part.....but true HAPPINESS in a marriage....just in your life....if more important than being someones wife & having to be someone you aren't even happy being.

You really need to look at your own personal values in life & figure out if this is really where you want to be? As for me....I am leaving a 32 year marriage because I was stupid enough to get into it in the first place & tolerated a lot of crap all those years. I was getting something out of it....or I would have also left long long ago....but there comes a time when I look back & wish I had left early on when I knew I should or never got involved in the first place (which is what my gut feeling told me before the wedding).

Mostly...you need to look at your own motives & why you ever want to continue living in an unhappy situation that makes you angry & than think that you can just take a med to make the anger go away....sounds like kind of a unreal world you are trying to live in.

Debbie