You’ve dated more than one alcoholic right? And your father was/is one? Now you need to explore why you keep getting attracted to the same type of dysfunctional man, and work on changing your pattern. You want true love and a healthy relationship, right? So work towards learning more about what a healthy relationship looks like, what a dysfunctional and unhealthy relationship looks like, and on how to weed through prospects by process of elimination and identifying the red flags early on.