My T terminated me... she gave me 6 weeks notice, I was devastated. As for the last 6 sessions, they were tense, sad and just simply dreadful.
I think I took it extra bad because I was attached and I had no choice but to accept she was leaving me, also because I took and still take it very personal. So we kinda just spent the last sessions with me arguing that I felt it was personal and I was hurt by her choice.
Was those 6 weeks productive and did I learn anything?! No not really, looking back we might aswell have ended then and there because even though I had a decent amount of warning, I still wasn't prepared to leave and say goodbye, and the final session was just atrocious.
I spent along time in my 2 years of therapy with her fearing abandonment and fearing saying goodbye to her, and that fear become justified I feel.
I haven't cope well in the last 4 months, I go from sadness, to neediness, to anger, but I think that's because I wasn't ready to leave and it wasn't my time to go.
I do think if it's the clients choice or a mutual decision, it woluld still be hard because it is a loss of a close relationship, however I feel it can be worked though in this circumstance. I on the other hand wish I had run away at the first sign of attachment!
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