I'm not a teenager either and I struggle with self harm (SH) pretty consistently, though I have about 78 days clean. It's hard to talk to people irl about SH because it's not understood, or it's thought to be a teenage thing. Coping mechanisms are needed at times, and if this is what keeps me from suicide, then it's worth it. But it's still something I'm working on, to reduce, and eliminate from my life. HUGS Kit