I am doing well. I washed a few loads of laundry and vacuumed the apartment. I also had the maintenance man come by to fix some repairs. I took a shower and put on my makeup. I lost two more pounds also. I feel good. I am eating less and moving more but not really walking every day. I am happy. I may have a cavity though so I will need to go to the dentist. Argh!! Overall, life is going pretty well. I think the shots of Maintena-Abilify are effective.


I am hoping that I won't have to worry about taking my medication anymore. Thus, I will continue with the shots. I am hoping to lose forty pounds overall. My next appointment at the clinic is next week, and I'm hoping that I weigh five pounds less than before. My mother was disgusted I gained much weight. But, it is my fault because I was eating at buffets before and sleeping a lot. I am more active now and feel much better. I hope to continue this upward trend.


I am happy with my life. I was not before. I made many mistakes due to poor judgment. This comes from my illness. I need to have family near me. I was living alone in another country and know that I need my family no matter what. My parents thought it was a great idea for me to be living alone. I still think they have problems realizing that I am really ill at times. I will never be really independent but at least I will try to survive with what I have. I know my limitations. I think being alone anywhere is hardship for anybody. My family should not expect too much from me. They are learning the hard way that I have an illness that requires support from others. I'm trying to do more things on my own though. Eventually I'll be alone. I am hoping I won't be alone anymore but the reality is my parents won't live forever.


I just take it one day at a time now. I don't need to think too hard about the future because I have never been able to think that far ahead and be positive. I will take it as it comes. I am not unhappy. I am glad now I'm recovering.


I will look for jobs eventually again. Until the times comes to look for jobs, I will enjoy what I have.