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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
This board is usually pretty reasonable in terms of extreme opinions and the insulting and demeaning that typically goes with them, but the internet is a terrible place to seek support for any kind of real issue in your life. Most famous writers/celebrities/known people do not read anything about themselves on the web, because they have wisely figured out that the "haters" and the negativity doesn't feel good or helpful.
So maybe the question is why do this to yourself? Seems like self harm to post this on that kind of site. But for the record, I think you deserve empathy and above all self compassion, not scorn and dismissal and harsh judgements.
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I honestly don’t know why I did it. I don’t remember posting as a way to intentionally self harm. I think I genuinely wanted answers and insight as to how to forgive myself. It was a bit shocking in a way to read that most people were so caught up by my selfish wording of being “abandoned” than giving me tangible advice on how to forgive myself. Now I know, I suppose. They made their points very clear and I won’t post anything like that again on quora. If only they knew what I was really like and how much shame I already feel, maybe they would have been a little softer? I don’t know if this is even the right approach or makes a difference, but I’d like to think that the type of person I am and the difficult/intense dynamic with T makes a difference in how people view my actions and mistakes. It was very hard to read how confident some of the posters were in their views, absolutely certain I’m crazy and have/had absolute no respect for my T. I don’t know if it’s possible to have respect for someone and hurt them/cross their boundary at the same time, but I genuinely feel bad for what I did.