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Originally Posted by octoberful
No, I never held back, but it's supposed to be explored in the type of therapy I do. Falling in love with your T is expected and thought of as transference. But there's no goal to 'deal with' or 'stop' the feelings--exploring it is part of the process.
But I also do not associate morals with feeling sexual or love feelings and have even enjoyed having such feelings for my T. He is married too, but my feelings cannot discern a single person from a married. Feelings are one thing; actions another. I don't associate my love or sexual feelings for T in a negative way.
Guilt in itself can be painful, even self-destructive for some. Isn't it hard to not work through the guilt with your T? I'm glad to hear you are not beating yourself up anymore about it.
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Guilt...ahhh. That hit me. Somehow I guess I believe I'm avoiding guilt by telling myself I'm respecting her as a person and acting in a morally correct way. Maybe I am kidding myself. Thank you. This is something to ponder over.