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Originally Posted by Nowinners
Life is not fair but if you hang on for dear life, perhaps you will find purpose some way. Maybe you need to have a good cry? Sometimes we don't let our selves fully feel sadness for really tough stuff and it leaves us wanting to die. Sometimes the right drugs can get us through the worst so we can get to work figuring out what life is about? Try to drug yourself happy (things that safely bring you up) but not so much that you feel so numb that you can't figure it out and get/stay dumb and under people's thumbs?  |
I think I know what you mean by "drug yourself happy" so I'm not gonna flip out and assume you are speaking of strret drigs - but even if you were the answer would be the same: neither my husband nor I take drugs of any kind and I would never trust drugs of any sort coming from another person -even a good friend or relative.
As far as crying - I dont care who sees me anymore, I cry .. silently, but I cry. I allow myself to feel all emotions - anger I reel in.
I got really angry today n coming down from it (even while being angry) triggered my depression. While I was angry, even tho the feelings were there and I was even very close to crying but very much wanted to die rather than feel so much anger - that anger was so strong it overwhelmed me n pushed past those thoughts .. as I calmed from the anger, at first it was jyst relief ... then full on suicidal feelings hit.
Thats why I wrote another post questioning if anger n depression are connected. It confuses me.