I know this isn't the spiritual forum.....but personally, I have found that when I got involved in a bible study that focused on the Fruits of the Spirit.......it really gave me the insight I needed to answer for me.....the existential questions & feelings I was going through so deeply before then. For me, I have found that I can find the guidence I need for those questions through the bible......added to that, the meaning for my life. I can see that my questions as to the value of my life & what in the world am I even existing & what purpose would there ever be for life is answered through the bible & God's word.

I can hold the secular concepts of those questions & find the secular answers to those questions within books.....but it is important to see all aspects of those existential questions & without adding the understanding of the bible into the picture.....there is a real lack of the whole picture of life which I know I was definitely missing & could relate deeply with the existential depression.....especially after loosing my career & not having a marriage that would add anything to my life......I saw nothing there for me & obviously...nothing in the future without a career that I had worked all my life & focused on forever to be the main part of my life.....without that....there was no meaning.....until now.

This post is about what I have found as the answer to my existential depression.....they didn't have this term in 1994.....don't know if it would be good enough to get disability for either.....but honestly.....I think this was really what I was dealing with for all those years that it was called Major Depression recurrant.....based on a situation that occured in my life....but because I couldn't answer those questions....I couldn't let go of the depression until now.

Debbie