fluff, I wish I could have said something that would have been more helpful. I care very much about you. I don't know a whole lot about psychotherapy except for the fact that I go and talk. I don't know one method from another etc. I guess I figure I'm confused about enough without trying to figure out what school of thought my t. is applying etc. If I did, I would probably obcess over it!
I do know that you are suffering and feeling so confused. Like I told you when you were sick, my strengths are in making somebody their favorite comfort food and listening non-judgementally. (I hope)
The one thing I do know, is that you seem to have connected with this t. on many important levels and he sounds like one that you can at least open the doors a little to trust. Beyond that, I'm very confused as to his timing. It doesn't make any sense to me at all. I guess that's what made me think of the ativan. Your safety was the only thing I could think of that would require such a seemingly sudden change.
I'm still here for a shoulder or whatever I can offer to you.
tulips