I know this must sound like a crazy question but... we have only been working together since December. There have been a few things he has asked me to do and has gotten slight resistance but I have not done anything to push him away... and he seems to be waiting for me to at least try or to get angry or something. I know I got angry with MT and with DT and pushed them away. I don’t think .i ever pushed ST away and PT never got close enough to be pushed away.
Right now I am feeling super anxious because he is gently asking for more trust and more trust = more attachment and I don’t want that. I’m scared but I don’t want to push him away... ideally I would like to sit up against his legs with my back to him... maybe I just have spent too long around cats? I want to curl up next to you but do NOT acknowledge me to touch me (physically or emotionally)... don’t even look for that matter. But what ever you do DO NOT go away.