I go back and forth between being fine with my gender and then being unhappy with it.

I'm afab(assigned female at birth). But then I'll have a dream about being a guy and be the happiest I've ever been in my life. But I wake up feeling sad when the dream is over.

Having these dreams makes me wonder.

I've tried identifying as a guy before. It made me happy when people saw me as one and I passed. But I also felt stressed out all the time. Because I was afraid of being treated like a guy and treated roughly and such.

I've been trying to figure out myself since high school. I'm 21 now and still confused.

Can anyone offer any advice or help?

Also I do experience dysphoria of the chest.