My T has been on vacation for the past 3 weeks and will be back tomorrow. It’s always a struggle for me trying to figure out how to ‘be’ at that first session back. So many thoughts and feelings about her being gone, and her being back.

I struggle with the push-pull of her leaving and then with her coming back.
I want to ask her about her vacation but I also want to act like it didn’t matter to me at all.
I want to tell her all the difficult thought and feelings I’ve had during her absence, but once again deny them.

How do you handle post-vacation? Do you struggle with the push-pull as well?