Are you on a small dose of Buspar? I take 30 mg 2x a day for anxiety. I used to struggle with med compliance when I was first diagnosed. (and even presently to some degree) I can relate. I just told myself it was better than the alternative which was always full blown hypomania or depression. My moods were everywhere and I cycled rapidly. But I had my family, PDoc and Therapist to help me out. I believe that some side effects were a small price to pay. My PDoc won't give me any benzos because of the abuse epidemic here in NYS. Guess he's old school lol. Hope it all works out for you.