and today I have missed my Jane more then I can express. She loved young people and did not find their thoughts and feelings trivial. I have tried to keep her teachings with me except it is hard to live up to her. I am glad I had her. Then again I didn't have this place and thousands of people to relate to, just her in her warmth and love. I love her so much and miss her. The daily pain has grown to a numb but the pain is still there inside. I miss my dearest Jane. I need her wisdom to guide me through. I want to have her still.