so honestly, why did you post to begin with? you are right we don't live in your shoes...sounds like you really didn't want answers or suggestions of help just people to say "hey good for you!" sorry. I can't go there.

lots of folks have depression social anxiety etc....you know what the right thing is...or you wouldn't be writing here looking for folks to tell you to go ahead & have the affairs. probably ain't gonna happen. but hey no one can make that call but you. perhaps it's time to make the right call.