Well my alarm went off early this morning and I had planned to go to the gym, but as I’ve learned in therapy, feelings change, and instead of going to the gym I went to my therapy appointment. I had sent a clear cancellation email so I knew he might not be there since it was the first appointment of the day. But as I drove past his building I could see that his light was on and I also recognized his car in the lot. I was a couple minutes late and his door was open, but he was working at his desk so I knocked. When he saw me he had a big smile on his face and he said, “I’m so glad you came.” He said he believed me that I wasn’t planning to come, but he understood that feelings change and he wanted to be there in case I changed my mind.

He said I was courageous for bringing up what I brought up yesterday in session and for showing up today. We talked about how it’s ok to be angry and I don’t need my anger to dissipate before showing up for our sessions., and how we don’t always feel good after therapy sessions and that’s ok. We also talked a bit about how I think other people’s situations are worse than mine and therefore mine aren’t valid, etc. I told him I wished he had responded to my email by saying “come in anyway” and we had a good talk about that. I thanked him for showing up. Phew.