I know my mood has been in an upswing lately. Sometimes I feel extremely great. Other times there are some mixed features, anxiety, and compulsive behavior mixed in, which are not as pleasant. It can all change during the course of the day, and I can have some more level periods.

I've been having aggressive feelings, though more in a defensive way. I feel like I'm fighting off some outside forces that are stressing me out. They are not always based on reality. That doesn't mean I'm psychotic. I just have these intermittent daydreams of being attacked and fighting back.

With this "upswing", my whole system is in overdrive. I sweat easily. My thoughts definitely do race. Everything is so quick quick quick, and it's like I'm racing up a mountain while batting away falling rocks.

I should probably take a minimum of 25 mg of "as needed" Seroquel on top of my usual meds. Maybe I'll do just that. I see my psychiatrist on Monday. I do NOT want him to raise my regular Seroquel XR dose. I despise getting up to 600 mg.