Fern, although our situations may be different I completely relate to wanting to know what caused your episode and feeling lost without being sure of the label. I feel like I have no idea what really is wrong with my brain, yet some combo of mood, anxiety, mild paranoia and obsessive/compulsive type thoughts are mixing on and off. May or may not be bipolar, OCD, something else. Does your treatment plan seem to be helping for the time being? Hoping you get the answers and help you need. Also, please don't feel you have to leave due to the uncertain diagnosis, we like having you here.