I tell T a lot when he does something I find comforting but I don’t feel close to him, he kinda called me out on that last session. One session I was feeling particularly vulnerable with him and he spontaneously reached out and put his hand on mine and let it get quiet. I softly uttered the most sincere thank you that I have ever felt. He knew he did the right thing taking the risk of initiating touch when I was feeling so very vulnerable and he did tear up a bit. But... feeling connected to him is the next big goal and I am scared out of my mind but I also want it more than I have ever wanted anything.