But first, I'm sorry to keep talking here. I know I'm burdening everyone everywhere.
My t said I appeared mixed because my depression is still very high but my energy levels are crazy high too. My libido is beyond the limits. I'm not sleeping much more than five hours on a long night. I did get rid of the old pills, and don't own guns. That helped him be less concerned but he said to call for help if I need it. I do feel suicidal but not too a point of doing anything about it either way. I'm stuck in the self loathing and uselessness and worthlessness. I don't see the point in trying yet again to die when I've not yet succeeded in all the other attempts.
My t did recommend I bring a kitty here. I'm not 100% sure I should be responsible for another life because I'm not responsible with my own. I didn't tell him about the mild hallucinations but he also didn't ask. Why do I feel like everyone will be better off without me, especially me?