I am just so confused right now about whether I am right to feel the way I do about something. Well see my cousin SA me and well it is not easy for me to see him. Well so my family knows this and my aunt, his mom, actually promised me that he would just not be allowed to come home for family functions and that I wouldn't have to see him. Well this last Thanksgiving she asked me beforehand if he could spend Thanksgiving with our family. So I felt like I shouldn't keep him from his family, since they are his family too, so I said ok and spent Thanksgiving elsewhere. Well my family ended up getting together 4 times then without me, always with him. This did a big emotional number on me and my family is aware of this. I was actually in the hospital shortly after partly due to my feeling bad about this. Well see the same thing is happening again for Easter. I feel so abandoned and cast out by my family. I feel they are choosing him over me. My parents are ok with it all too. Of course my parents are not the greatest people to me. But am I wrong to not want to go? Am I wrong for feeling the way I do? What do I do?

Jennifer