I function pretty highly on meds but off meds... I deteriorate quickly.

Its kind of upsetting to understand that, even through all the therapy and time and treatment and effort- pull away the curtain and Im still the same messed up person.

I hope that, in your case- there CAN be a better. Stable is better, but stable with a less disabling disease... I hope that for you.

Keep talking to professionals. Theyll help you know your limits- and best of luck to you