fake it till you make it! know the feeling very well. try to have though, if you can! my T left the door open today while he searched for my PDoc and he gave me a bucket of sand to mess around with and ground myself. definitely a different experience. I think he was a little freaked by my mania. but yeah, feeling all the feels with this mixed state today. one minute I'm listening to upbeat music and flailing my arms around in my truck, and the next I'm listening to sad soundtrack music, crying. ugh. it's horrible. I hope you get through yours fast. wishing you well and sending hugs!