I wanted to tell you that the intense pain of loneliness eventually fades. At least for me. Unfortunately I haven't had a friend in real life here in like 18 years. I had a few online friends during my intense spiritual peak years. After losing spirituality I lost all of those friends which led to serious depression and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis, which lasted for like 7 or so years but the good news is that the pain and loneliness eventually fades.

I hope you find friends that you feel comfortable with. If not then it's not the end of the world. You can learn to be friends with the best person in the world for you, yourself.