I don't think so Jennifer...

But at some point you must try to move away from feeling like a complicit victim...This was NOT your fault...Guilt is a tireless horse,,,it trots to deep sorrow and then to profound despair...This despair is what can take us down...

Please try to accept that you have no need to carry any shame. He is the guilty here and though some folks are using denial to move around what they don't wish to face,,,it is up to you what you will do with the Truth.

Please be kind to yourself Jennifer...

Lenny