Well I'm still pretty low. I was supposed to go to my nephews concert tonight, but that didn't end up happening, so it was another day in bed. I'm so sick of this, but I can't motivate myself to get up and do anything. I just want to sleep the day away, but I can't even do that. I'm wide awake staring at the ceiling. I just want to fast forward to when I'm over this. I found a couple of restoril pills at the bottom of my drawer in my nightstand and I desperately want to take one because I know I will get a lot of sleep. But they're expired (two years old), so I can't. There is nothing to look forward to, there is nothing for me to do (except cut the grass, eww), I just exist. All I'm doing is putting on weight from all the eating and sleeping. I feel so alone.