It would be one thing if it were one or two - but it was my entire social circle. Those who had known me for years n those who just met me.

See when I was in my long depression, I weeded out my social circle to the point I only had my husband left "full time", my sister n dad were "partial contact" .. and there was nobody else period. From then on - I was very cautious on who I let in my social circle and weeded it out as needed. So - when everyone turned on me .. that threw me.

Since then, I wouldn't say I've had triggers - but not being able to talk makes it bigger then add in any day to day problem n that becomes another reason until soon I no longer need a reason .. and I passed that point a day after I rejoined PC. So now its just plain old depression. I originally was trying to keep it from getting severe - that failed. So now .. it is what it is. Perhaps it wont get dark n desparate. That's the only hope I have. Yet - I dont hold out much.