I am so sleep deprived because of my mixed state. I am still manic with some depression but the mania seems to be taking over. the mirtazapine didn't help at all. I eventually fell asleep around 3:30 am then woke up hungry about 7 am. I went downstairs and ate and took my psych and blood pressure meds. then I went back up for 2 hours but didn't sleep.
my body wants to sleep but my mind has other plans. I literally forced myself to stay in bed where I proceeded to listen to film scores and podcasts all night. I was so tempted to get up and re-arrange something. being sleep deprived really sucks. and mania with depression mixed in is a catastrophe. I have energy with this mania but without the euphoria or excitement usually connected with my hypomania.
my wife had to cancel dinner plans tonight because I'm a mess right now. I felt compelled to reach out to everyone on PC this morning just to update you all. I hope to try and get grounded and centered today but I know I'm gonna feel like crap all day. today is star wars day so I'll be checking a few of the films out on blu-ray. maybe that'll help.
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Diagnosed 2008
Bipolar II with Mixed States, Rapid Cycling with Anxiety / Depression:
Meds: Zoloft, Latuda, Gabapentin & Depakote.
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