Thanks for the ideas.

I was in t today and a full hallucination happened. Oh did I wish I had a med but it was home. I took it as soon as I got home. I felt like my body was 1,000s of pounds. I just don't want that feeling to come back. It's been about .5 an hour since I got home. The med should start to work. I just hope closing my eyes gets easier today.

What was discussed.... Pain I remember crying in my head but few tears escaped. I am tired now. I don't know what to expect in the upcoming hours. I'm going to try and stay out of my body.

I am doing self care though, I want to ignore a phone call from T. I just don't want to focus on it anymore. I made a note of when I took the prn. I just hope I can stay out of hallucinating. What floors me even more is my mood didn't change through out this experience. I felt pretty level. Not happy or sad. Wonder what that's about, do I? May the Fourth be with you....