I haven’t read the posts past this one, but coming to the defense of the op, I feel the need to share this. I have a very small temper. I work with special needs children and never get angry in the classroom and very rarely raise my voice to my own children. That said when full on manic, I can go from euphoric to lunatic in 1.2 seconds. Like the time I sent my husband to the grocery store for food and instead of coming home with regular groceries, he had gone to gfs and bought groceries in bulk. Well, I screamed at him at the top of my lungs and started throwing things because I didn’t want bulk groceries. I also just so happened to be completely psychotic. I have done dangerous things that God has told me to do in the past when, under normal circumstances I am a very rational thinker. You cannot judge a mentally ill person by what they do or how they act when they are sick.