Wine actually has health benefits if taken in proper amounts.
It's one of those "uh huh .. yea right .. you just like it" sounding healthy things like chocolate - but its true.
Here is info on wine:
First - you need to know this:
Benefits of Natural Wine vs. Dangers of Conventional Wine | The Whole Journey
Next .. here are some of the benefits of wine (without the poisons added):
13 Surprising Health Benefits of Wine - Natural Food Series
5 Benefits of Drinking White Wine | Weekly Toast
Red, White Or Rose. Which Wine Should You Be Drinking And Why? - Health Ambition
Keep in mind though - over doing it, like anything else, negates the advantages and instead turns into disadvantages.
Anyway - thought I would give you info so you could stop beating yourself up. ❤