My words n hugs n empathy n anything else I share or give to you are real. Why? Because my Mom taught me what it felt like to receive it - my Dad, step mom, step sisters, and counselors taught me what it was to have it thrown back in my face. One is such a wonderful feeling - the other is such a harmful (not just hurtful) feeling. I will never harm someone in that way. I have also been lied to about empathy before and that ends up making me feel worthless. So yea .. If I don't feel it or don't really want to give it - I just won't. I refuse to hurt people if I can help it. Especially my friends. I consider you a friend.

I have had counselors say many a hurtful thing to me .. it's why I don't trust them. I almost think they do it on purpose to be sure we don't form an attachment to them. But to me - it causes more harm than good. It's why I went to dealing with things on my own. That's supposed to be seen as a good thing - but when you feel pushed into it there is nothing healthy about it. I completely understand your pain. If ever you want to talk, send me a PM. ❤

Love you my friend.